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Do you have her perfume


<td class=. He ran my own company, and I was a foreign white-collar workers, in the eyes of friends, the perfect marriage to our impeccable. However, all this in my trip out to the field much worse, began to change.
that, I'm back, Lin Hao early as usual, did not pick up the machine before, but recently the company called and said something more, let me go back a man, and then hastily hung up the phone. After returning home, found everywhere in the home showing signs of long unoccupied. I am a woman got a little older, so the first thing after the door is entered, changed clothes and then started cleaning the living room, when I picked up the clothes into the washing machine replaced Lin Hao, the pungent perfume I had the zheng zhu. Lin Hao is because I never use fragrances, to perfume it where it? Do I have to experience marriage and Lin Hao-called
time for dinner, always felt to me before Lin Hao less enthusiasm, even his smile is even reveal the far-fetched and a little stiff, I jokingly said: ? I think he might be really busy, so he took it all the time other than eight hours on the family,[link widoczny dla zalogowanych], devoted care of his daily diet.
a weekend, we have been asleep, and Lin Hao suddenly up and told me he was going out a trip, because there is an important meeting to open. He went to the bathroom to change clothes at the time, I read text messages on his cell phone, one number name for the field five minutes before Yan sent a such a message: Lin Hao
think of the changes the past few days, I close my eyes, pretending to sleep, had left his front foot out, I just like the rear foot up, I've watched has been with Lin Hao to enter the Garden Hotel in room 1107 ... ... If I used him only because he suspected, now these doubts are confirmed, my heart was like a hollowed out, as has been sinking to the endless darkness! I repeated in my mind that our friends over again, but that is not called Tien Hsin, and I think it might be

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I do not know what their own home, and sub-let me a loss. I like the whole night, besieged a beast, barefoot impatience walked in the room, my chest was filled like cotton, hair, like to plug you want to split, I think The family gave it all, he should like this to me, for a time, pain, despair, humiliation like a serpent suddenly he went to my heart, with its sharp teeth indiscriminately Kenshi my heart.
predictably, the next day's clothes and Lin Hao Piaoqi replaced the kind of scent, it is the kind of publicity, seems to be as provocative as I have to go away. I changed the habits of the past, nervously began to show concern for each brand of perfume and flavors. Slowly I learned that the perfume is called the Since then I have more and more of them on the perfume sensitive, I can even smell the smell is very close to the Sometimes walking down the street, with the occasional pass strangers .
the next day, Lin Hao said that a key meeting in bursts to open, and then the next day will be replaced with a pile of clothes that smell of perfume coming back, this more concentrated, gradually, he occupied the entire room, I know this is deliberately left the taste of the woman, provocative gesture to be proud of my endurance. I breathe her sorrow and humiliation left me, and my heart to numb the pain. I do not know how to do their own is to him an argument, and then listen to his remorse, and then is willing to forgive his being betrayed, or are pretending to know nothing, just walk away? They say love is a price to pay, Is this love that he cost? I do pay for his heart and soul, laundry, cooking, love, tolerance, and even lose his own youth, create a successful career playing, more gentle man of gold, the result is that he was betrayed me , I am not willing!


three days in tears and torment, day by day across the heart of the struggle the pain to me to be added. I repeatedly remind himself to be calm, and trying to be nice to him, and strive to make their own model to make a good wife. I tried every means his heart can not recall, I even began to behave in the heart of their own wrong, I think I was not wrong, just so that he began to be betrayed it? In fact, I have a decent job perfectly clear and clean appearance, colleagues also say that my work seriously, do not spend money, tolerance with virtue, and everyone can get along. I really could not find anything wrong with me, even in the shower, I did not forget to carefully look at myself, I find that I do not so comfortable and the body fat, on the contrary stung my skin is still white The tight, inside and outside are showing maturity and a small girl unparalleled enchanting. But why look at my eyes Lin Hao has been no previous tender and touching, so that the happiness of this one left me one night to savor alone!
once, I was a rush to the house after work to catch the woman, because there was once a paradise of happiness and Lin Hao birth. At that time, I was a little woman like water, like their own fingertips across his skin feel; or they say nothing to cling so tightly to him, feeling his heart beat and pulse in his body and let the water lilies as quietly as their own opening. But now, the home became my purgatory, where the smell made me all night sleep all night. Friends tried to persuade me that when a relationship becomes a painful time, we must know how to let go of looking for the next a beautiful, but they do not know, I have no strength, my whole heart is Lin Hao, where someone else location! Lin Hao
no night, I started to write their own feelings on the blog, I used to love, and Lin Hao, we have the mood in the habit of writing the blog, when I wrote about a girl's broken mind reading is his favorite pieces, so even if no matter how busy, they did not forget is updated every day, because I know he would go every day. Lin Hao on about me but now everything seems to be set if the desolate heard.

I think is really the He can see it: without him I have been very bad, I want him to know that I was worrying about what he is concerned about the family, so I put their own computer screen into a screen saver with a sad color, or even in the living room and their own music into a depression, like: Tell me you love me / love of another invasion of many years of yearning and searching in my heart before / aspiration of many years reluctant to miss the Country Life has gradually emerged Resurrection / Love and love intertwined lingering / I fell in love with you life and death / the promise of a word remaining rest of his life debt to / did love Qingshenyuanqian / Why the sky struggling to persuade / how to recover the phrase oath / Tell me you love me do / Tell me your truth / you have not let go / I really care about your answer / tell me you love me / tell me you thought of me / and other words of this life and maybe ... ...
However, this is all in vain, Lin Hao home with increasing frequency to less home kinds of heavy perfume smell. I thought, Lin Hao, he really does not love me, can not withstand even the feelings of seven a month apart, I like a fish out of water, Yan Yan's numb all day. I had the idea to escape.
I am not a struggle of people like, because I know that some things can not be forced to. When love is not the time, cried to refuse to let go of the practice can only be unwilling to disgrace, but really want me to leave, there are a lot of sadness in my heart, because for Lin Hao, I still love with, I think the departure of its care now, do not let themselves love to despair as it let go.
so in the coming days, I have a similar psychological self-flagellation, I even began to long for me to unfeeling Lin Hao to some, now that he no longer loves me, it is best to shred the opportunity do not leave me again. I also knew I was asking for trouble, but this can blame? I do a good job early on every night meal waiting for him to come back, although I know the majority of cases are disappointing; as before I help him with his clothes, dressed him every time a date with another woman; I do not even It had more to fear from the familiar perfume, anyway, it has been everywhere! I think I will always be the day of despair!

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Lin Hao once when I wash my clothes ironed, when the woman has received the phone. She said she wanted and I meet.
I carefully bathed, in the heart of the all-out for good, and then spray some lavender in his face toner. Zinfandel is not decorated, this is my habit for years.
designated taxi came to her coffee bar, just a door to smell the perfume of that tacky, I was too familiar with this smell, eyes closed so I can accurately find the location of her, then she opposite to sit down. And I thought the same, her young, publicity, fashion, is a beautiful woman.
more. Am happy that I can be very time moment conceal the pain of their own, and to let themselves in front of her show to a lady in stride.

He will know what he really needs? smart people, you should understand that no mortal worldly air about her, the so-called romance of married men is a life swap. I think you know, Lin Hao, no matter how busy he is, but always I do find time to come back to eat the food, drink my pot of soup. can only engage in clandestine underground situation, you are still young, only one is not suitable for underground lovers.
I got up to leave, the girl looked at me I kind of hate the impulse to laugh, so many days, the affair as pain like a knife carved my heart, and now I am more feel sick and tired, but rarely feel the pain, could I have started so soon despair of it?

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back home, while finishing my own clothes while to call a friend in Shanghai, told her she was there, I'm going to work!
the next day, I was busy resignation, visit friends, dealing with things has not been completed before, but just then suddenly began to quiet down Lin Hao, a row a few nights stay at home for dinner, a friend told me that :
a time when I came back very late, Lin Hao, a meal ahead of time even at home waiting for me on the table and a bottle of red wine, looked at me and sat down to devour the other regardless of the way, Lin Hao stopped several times stopped.

waiting for this day so long, I had deliberately deviates from the topic of pain and frustration, saying: Or their own conscience want to be betrayed to the point of compensation, anyway, these have been important for me, the bow is no turning back, I have decided to go.
for the first time to eat this bread, I quietly got up and ready to clean up the dishes, but was turned to Lin Hao and hugged, and then he started kissing my face, lips, neck, long time no Lin Hao touched me, this is how today? I have moments, intoxicated, and his kiss lingering and warm, it seems that even the air is getting wet, and then his hand started to rub my back, and then transferred to the chest, each movement is just right, I am never ever crush. I am about to round stuck in the moment, biting my earlobe Lin Hao low whisper: a woman's body to another woman's body, the middle can do without a little love process? And Lin Hao met seven years, he has never been so to lingering, so deceptive patterns may all be learned from the girl to the bar! With her, he must not only once, and she had this lingering thought of here, my body suddenly stretched the stiffness, I break his arms, said: And then hid in the bathroom, shut the door the moment, I can not help but burst into tears, in fact, turned him down, my heart pain pain. I was thinking to say to yourself: it was all over and never coming back, from love to not love, this journey I go too hard!
When I settled down to get out of the bathroom to their own time, Lin Hao has been and fell asleep, watched him absorb all the snoring issue, my mind went blank, although I know next to his body will no longer a kind of I had prepared to bring luggage, bid farewell to the sleeping Lin Hao, set foot in the early morning when the 2:00 train bound for Shanghai.

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when the roar of the train woke me up, when is noon, the sun shone through the window, I have moments, dizziness, rapid retreat of the field looking out the window and villages, and think this is like seven years had a long dream, now wake up, and since then, will be the new heaven and new earth. Lin Hao heart once again reminded just do not know at this time is that he will not rush to find me? He will regret it? But all this is not important, I think that one day, everything is all about Lin Hao will fade out of my memory. Think of Eileen Chang said in an article in one sentence: emotionally is no turning back, because no one has been standing still waiting for you!